Niat

Niat. Tiap satu perbuatan atau pekerjaan kita mesti ada niat dulu. Sebab outcome benda yang dibuat tanpa niat sangat tersasar jauh dari apa-apa yang kita harapkan.

Contoh:
Masa zaman PMR tahun 2001-2003 dulu aku puluh study sebab niat nak puaskan hati sendiri. Outcome: Dapatlah result yang boleh tahan impressive bagi aku.

Contoh 2:
Masa zaman SPM tahun 2004-2005 kena paksa masuk sekolah asrama. So..aku riot! Memberontak sepenuh hati. Niat masa tu untuk pay back apa yang parents paksa dengan result yang sangat 'impressive'.

Haa nampak tak? Allah memang akan ikut apa yang kita nak kalau kita sunguh-sungguh dalam hati mahukan.Cuma kalau ada adik2 yang baca ni tak payahlah ikut apa yang AKAK buat.

Kenapa?

Sebab korang punya takdir tak sama macam aku. Meh sambung balik cerita lain (cerita NIAT dah habis k). 

Disebabkan niat gila masa SPM dulu, aku seriously pandang akademik macam pandang neraka. Ponteng kelas, tidur waktu PNP dan sebagainya. On contrary, aku sangat aktif ko-k. Masuk silat gayong, cakra alam, scuba, KRS, kawad kaki. Dan segala puji untuk Allah yang sangat penyayang, pelukis blue print hidup yang sangat ohsem, aku ditakdirkan dapat jumpa satu cikgu yang namanya Anuar Ahmad.

Cikgu Nuar: gurulatih silat, cakra alam, coach kawad krs, segala mak nenek aktiviti rapelling, scuba and so on.

Cikgu kata kalau awak percaya SPM tu penentu masa depan, kamu jatuh syirik. Otak masa tu baru berusia 16 tahun dan sangat normal untuk aku terkejut beruk. Lepas bertahun-tahun hidup lepas habis sekolah baru aku gradually digest maksud cikgu.

Allah tunjukkan sifat penyayang-Nya pada aku dengan temukan cikgu Nuar. Kalau tak... ke laut aku gamaknya! Walaupun result SPM sangat tidak cantik macam PMR dulu tapi di sekolah yang aku rasa macam neraka ni lah aku belajar tentang pelajaran hidup yang sebenarnya. 

Cikgu sekarang tengah frust sampai dia kata nak tinggalkan aktiviti ko-k kat sekolah sebab pengetua nak budak-budak pulun study. Dan aku sangat bersimpati dengan junior-junior yang tak dapat nak merasa penangan cikgu Nuar ni.

Nota: Skill menulis aku sememangnya aku akui dah tumpul... Assalamualaikum!

Labour Day Special

Assalamualaikum warohmatullah wabarokatu

I'm feeling oldies this few weeks. (what the... ohh Bell, whatever)

It's May! Month of book and book and more book. I went to KL International Book Fair on Labour Day with some friends from work. And man I'm telling you people are EVERYWHERE. I have to really tell myself to stay calm and not being such a baby throwing tantrum in the packed crowd.

My advise, DO NOT go during public holiday/ school holiday. Well unless you love having huge number of students whose on a school trip in their baju batik uniform passing by non-stop. They are everywhere.

My catch? Just a latest volume of Gila-Gila mag to revisit my childhood, a novel by Hlovate - Anthem (I swear this one is huge man! You won't find this title on the shelve for more than 5 minutes. I get my copy not from the shelf but from the staff who just came in time to open new stock of this title.), and finally a book by Prof Muhaya - Celik Mata dan Jiwa (managed to get her signature).

So that's it for book fest 2013. I really have few idea what to wrote about me :) I mean like, I'm just fine. My cat's fine, a kitten just born a month ago and now he/she is wandering around the house non -stop with his/her penguin's walk. I got my contract extended for 3 more months. (Not so sure if that's a good one.) I have found bunch friends who loves to go for an adventure. Last month went to Gua Tempurung, last week to Sungai Chilling, K.Kubu Bharu.

Guess that all for now. It was a special labour day after all.

Of forgive, forget and vengeance

I'm so sorry but this will be just another monologue of mine. Like I said before, many thing happen to me and the people around me, and I thank Allah for all the guidance and help. Other than reading the holy Quran's translation, I also bought an inspiring book 2 months ago. 

Aleph by Paulo Coelho. You won't believe just how many pages that I have dog eared and still counting cuz I'm now on the final quarter of the novel. Recently I'm hooked with this para of the novel, here's the excerpt that I love the most;

"I will be capable of loving regardless of whether I am loved in return, 

           Of giving even when I have nothing,
           Of working happily even in the midst of difficulties,
           Of holding out my hand even when utterly alone and abandoned,
           Of drying my tears even while I weep,
           Of believing even when no one believes in me."

           Instead of grief, I choose forgetting. Instead of vengeance, I choose victory.

Sometimes life isn't all about what we have plan ahead. Destiny will be so bright and promising if we let Allah help us along the way. Tawakkal.

Ayu & Yunus and all of us.

60days

Wow... can you believe it? It has been two month already. Many thing happen within these 60 days. And many thing did not happen too. I laughed, I cried, I smiled, I cranked and I know everything happened for a or many visible or invisible reason.

And now it almost time to leave that building again. Like how it used to be the last time, but this time with more valuable memories to brought home with. Can you guys believe how God can easily answer a question that took me 7 years to figure out? Yes. I've waited for 7 years before finally understand what my master said 7 years ago. The answer came from Allah through that special person. And yes she doesn't even know it.

It's more like symbiosis relationship between me and her. Pray the best for me, and I wish you all the best!

Blogging live from forbidden city.

I forbade myself.

God help from such boredom!