I want to make believe

I like to believe that I, am a good writer. I want to believe that. But, I know I'm not. I know I can never write something without hurting other people. Or perhaps writing and make people remember what I have wrote.

Forgive me if I've ever hurt anyone here, Forgive me if I hurt you with what I wrote. I'm only human. Mortal human being.

Forgive me and I will forgive you automatically.

Xin Nian Kuai Le

It's the year of Water Dragon they said, and I was born on the year of the dragon. I don't celebrate Chinese new year at home but I used to when I was back in university. My lecturer boiled this herbal gravy together with chicken eggs (without breaking the eggs) and wow it taste good, though the smell was quite unbearable for me (it was my first time).

Other things that I found very interresting and always be remembered was the 'yee sang' and 'yam seng'. If you don't have a clue both terms related to food and drink respectively.
'Yee sang' is when we 'toss' all different kind and color of raw salad up high with our chopsticks. I'm not sure if toss is the right word lol but 'yee sang' means 'Prosperty Toss'...so there you go. How does ti taste? Sour. I asked my friends about this because I thought they want to put a joke on me (my tongue hate sour lol). Some said there is raw salted fish salad and maybe pickled vegetable. But that's not important, what important is you have to toss and mix all salad together with everyone as high as you can so that you have all the luck and prosper through out the whole year.

'yam seng' on the other hand is when everybody gather with a cup of drink in hand (in my case, I have orange juice) and make a circle and cheers 'yaaaaaaaaaaaam seeeeng'' aloud and as long as you can. I tried to make more than 30 seconds but I was kinda short of breath.
Anyhow, it's not the luck or the prosper that we really want (but hey, of course I want good luck and $$$) but to be together enjoying the moment matter most to me.

And oh ya, I'm a muslim living in Malaysia surrounded with friends of different race and religion. And I love them. Have a happy chinese new year.HOng bao na laiiii~

Richard Marx - Hazard

Honestly, I just found this song today. And now the misery haunt me.Now, this is what we called hazardous.

Live and Hope

One thing I love about my new job is, it connect me with real people. People who work because they desperately needs to LIVE. They don't work for having the money to spend shopping leisurely, they don't work for going on holiday but only because they want to keep on living and breath. I've met people, a lot of people who proved me how this country failed to function properly.

I looked at those people who came to me with hope in their eyes hoping tomorrow will be better than today. And I've met people who came to me with heavy frustration, hopeless that tomorrow, sun will never shine again. Fade as the black clouds hide their sun.  And I looked again at those people, and said to myself, "These are my countrymen...these are my people and there's not much I can do for them."

Thank you God for showing me the real people.

Akan bertugas

Fuh! Akhirny, 10haribulan ni akan mula bertugas dekat pejabat penghulu untuk 4hari (mungkin). Lepas tu akan bermula lah kerja mengadap skrin komputer lebih 8jam sehari. Haaa ambil kau! dulu merungut sangat tak ada kerja. Tapi aku terima dengan terbuka sebab at least aku tak jadi minah saja yang makan gaji buta.

Semalam ada taklimat tentang projek bantuan rakyat ni tapi last2 minitu boleh pula pihak SUK batalkan kawasan pejabat bertugas pegawai2 penaksiran. Seperti yang diduga tangan kotor politik mesti masuk campur punya.Haihhh di mana keikhlasan wakil-wakil rakyat ni? Niat dah baik, insyaAllah dah dapat pahala tapi perlukah dikotorkan sampai macam ni?

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Takabur.

Takabur ni rupa-rupanya datang dalam bentuk yang sangat halus ditiup-tiup syaitan dalam jiwa manusia. Sangat halus sampaikan bila kita ingat kita buat benda baik rupanya niat atau perasaan takabur tu dah berakar umbi dalam jiwa. Susah nak diterangkan sebab aku pun bukan pakar.

Tapi sekadar contoh, ada rakan FB kita yang tulis status seperti

"Azan maghrib dah dekat, kepada yang tak puasa (sempena 9/10 Muharram) lekas-lekaslah wudhu' untuk solat. Kepada yang puasa jom kita makan dulu."

Bagi sesetengah orang mungkin akan anggap benda ni biasa. Tapi bagi sesetengah orang lain pula mungkin akan cakap yang menulis status ni seolah-olah nak bagitahu satu dunia dia berpuasa. Aku sendiri kadang-kadang rasa macam ni biasalah manusia. Ada orang lain pula cakap perkara macam ni takabur ibadah, membangga-banggakan ibadah yang dia buat dan orang lain tak buat.

Bila difikir-fikir betul juga, kita manusia biasa yang serba-serbi khilaf ni, rasa bangga bila dapat buat sesuatu yang orang lain tak dapat/ mampu buat. Jadi, tak mustahillah kita mungkin akan rasa bangga terhadap ibadah kita. Seolah-olah mahu orang lain cakap, "wah... bagus dia ni selalu puasa sunat/ solat tahajud/ solat sunat lain-lain." Tapi ini semua cuma teori aku sendiri ye harap maklum tentang apa yang aku tulis. Ini cuma pendapat yang boleh dikritis dan dikritik.

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Persepsi sayaa terhadap LHDN khusus untuk cawangan Teluk Intan kini berubah. Rupa-rupanya LHDN Teluk Intan ni jabatan kerajaan yang paling berdisiplin berbanding jabatan kerajaan lain di sini. Strict sungguh, memang tak ada yang boleh senang-senang makan gaji buta.

Peace.