Just crapping

Should I tell her that I gave it up because of her?
That 'sister' that I'm talking about before
She's actually a friend of mine and not like what my friend's assume
I have another blog that I purposely planned to shut it down but in the end I just lock it for privacy.
And this blog too supposedly to be a secret.
Honestly, I like to write my heart out on this blog but..in the end I let the cat out of the bag and let certain people know the existence of my new blog.

About the older blog that I gave up on?
Well...you know girls...
They always have this very soft spot that I myself as a girl feel completely lost.
Anyway, I told that friend of mine about this blog and she is hiding her anger :)
I'm not suppose to laugh I know but the thing is I gave up the older blog because of her.
Haizz I don't understand my own species.

Oh ya, I'm home now, and it is totally a bliss.


p/s writing in English doesn't make me less Malay.

Let's just live

I am now packing for semester break. And with Allah's will I hope I reach home in one piece tomorrow evening. Tomorrow's journey will be the last time I ever going back home for semester break as a bachelor student for I am now in my final year. Kinda sad thinking that I will be leaving this way of life that has become a routine for almost like 3 years now.

Of course I have one more semester to go but...yeah...still...it's kinda gloomy inside. Plus, I went through this whole 5 month alone without a roommate. It's very cool at first, I could do anything you name it laughing my lungs out, rolling on the floor laughing, burping loudly, singing with high pitch, not turning off the light at night, and even fart anytime I wanted to. But, I'm just a mere mortal. I do get lonely sometimes, I'm less motivated, sigh~ it just that I really need 'the push' to make me jump of the cliff and do things better especially with my studies.

This is life. I had mine going on this way, you had yours rolling on  the way it planned to be by the Almighty. So let just chase the life the will lead us to the other life (it is quite covert isn't it?)

When we know how to die, we know how to live.

See you next semester USM.

source: sunnypapico

Impian butaku

Saya selalu berkata pada diri saya, 

Calon suami saya mesti sempurna, muslim sejati yang taat akan perintah Allah, mampu mengimamkan solat saya dan anak-anak, pandai mentartil Quran.

Tapi, bila saya fikir balik dan cermin diri sendiri,

Siapalah saya untuk meminta seorang suami yang perfect,sedangkan diri banyak cacat cela.

Siapalah saya untuk meminta seorang suami yang mampu imamkan solat, sedangkan diri sendiri solat banyak tertinggal.

Siapalah saya untuk meminta seorang suami yang mampu mengajar anak mengaji, sedangkan diri sendiri gagap menghabiskan sepotong ayat dalam al-quran.

sunny.papico flickr

Tumblog it!

I think I've mistreated my blog like a tumblr nowadays.

Hehe Yeah, I reblogged everything I like.

Aku penumpang paling bertuah

Kala laut sunyi hebat melambung ombak benci

Teroleng-oleng sampan kecil mengayuh cari daratan

Angin jangan hembus pergi tenang ini

Aku cuma penumpang menumpang damai lautmu

Cuba lari menjauh desir ribut cebis hati

Cuba tutup mata membutakan kejamnya dunia

Demi umurku bersumpah

Aku penumpang paling bertuah

Punya sampan kecil tapi kuat menongkah langkah

Walau compang camping bertampal gam rekahnya

Walau layar cuma sehelai sejadah buruk hadiah dari Tuhanku

Malam bawa pergi matahariku

Siang bawa pergi bulanku

Penumpang buta tanpa cahaya

Meraba-raba di lautan belantara

Turun naik tinggi gunung ombak

Terkapai-kapai cari capai tangan Hidayahnya

Titis hujan tengkujuh ini menghanyut pergi lukisan mimpi

Dingin hembus nafas sang Murabbi bagai tanda aku dikasihi

Moga doa empati penumpang ini bisa terus menerobos hati Ilahi

Walau sesak sempit penjara sampan dilautan sunyi

Walau kencang angin tidak sayang padaku

Walau dikhianati bintang penunjuk jalan ini

Aku rela walau disimbah asid caci

Kerna aku penumpang sejati cuba cari titik sujud kasih Rabbul Izzati

Demi umurku bersumpah

Aku penumpang paling bertuah.

sumber:  http://www.iluvislam.com/karya/puisi-kreatif/824-aku-penumpang-paling-bertuah.html